Have you ever done something you knew would regret when you did it, but went against all the omens and did it anyway? I'm pretty sure everyone has done this about something, and most people have done it with matters of the heart. The other day, boredom prompted me to check-out an ex-boyfriend's latest survey post. I know him well enough to know he is brutally honest, so all of the answers... all of the innuendo... all of the joy he's experiencing in life and love ended up making me feel like shit.
I'd long ago chocked the break-up to me. My indifference, my inability to be selfless, and (most of all), my failure to thwart the sentiments of naysayers. What I found is the same thing I realized when it hit me that he could be the one... it is no accident that a man of his caliber was single when I found him. Most women aren't ready when a dream guy is staring them in the face - hindsight tells me I'm one of them.
On the upside, I know that I learned some very important lessons from that relationship. A year later, it is much easier for me to assign whatever blame was mine to me. If you have someone who wants to do nothing other than be with and there for you, being busy with other things needs to take a back seat. When busy is over, only you can make sure lonely isn't waiting in the wings.
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